Suffering With Morgellons
(Phoenix, AZ, USA)
My hair with dye in it
I have been suffering with Morgellons, because there cannot be any other word to describe it, on and off for about 3 years now.
The first time I noticed "them" I literally went crazy. I mean LITERALLY to the point where I felt like my husband wasn't my husband and my kids weren't my kids.
I ended up 'restin' in a psych ward for a week and was put on Xyprexa which actually made the whole thing go away. Until now.
My husband gave me roses and as I was throwing them away because they had died a petal fell into the toilet. What I saw then really scared me. The water was calm but this thing began zipping from one side to the other and spinning in circles!! I threw another petal in and it did the same thing! Now I am so scared of every thing that I eat, wear, drink etc.
I have cut the seams out of jeans and watched them do the same thing. A piece of food did it as well. The scariest part of this whole thing is that there is nothing I can take this time to make it go away.
I have seen it, my son has seen it, and my 'make any excuse he can for what he see's' husband has witnessed the swimming as well. I want so much to be crazy again and I know how weird that sounds.
My 16 year old son with Aspergers Syndrome just had to have a granuloma removed from his scapula on his shoulder. Why did he
get it? It is one of those things that they have no explanation for. At first they thought he had cancer but, thank the Lord it was not.
He is covered in acne....or could it be a rash like I have read can occur from these things.
I have seen the tangles of thread under a microscope and, although I can't see a bug per se, I can see antenna sticking out of it. I am losing my hair in chunks.
I think the worst thing is that I am so alone. I work for Apple from my bedroom so I never really leave here. My husband is so distant that I can't speak to him about any of this. I have no friends I can confide in. At least I have found this board to vent to. Thank you for having it and thanks so very much for listening.
So sorry to hear of all of your suffering with Morgellons as well as all that you are going through with your son, etc. I can only imagine how disheartening this can all be.
Sadly, it could be the stress of the situation that is causing your hair loss, rather than suffering from Morgellons itself.
I'm glad that having a place like this where you can tell your story and confer with others is a help to you in some way.
I hope and pray that you find some of the suggestions here are a help to you and that you may find healing and peace soon.