(Moreno Valley, CA, USA)
Waiting for the CDC Morgellons report...
I am on year 3 and still going. I have to say I am getting better but not by leaps and bounds. I hate that I don't know what it is for sure but for now I'll go with Morgellons since it seems to fit.
Lesions on my buttocks, arms, upper back, a couple on my knees and ankles. My left hand sometimes itches which is weird.
I feel like there are bugs crawling under my skin so I pick the lesion or scab thingy off. So I bleed daily. Tissues are my friends. I use band-aids and it seems I get new ones around my band-aid.
I drink lots of water, shower 2 to 3 times a day using black tar soap and spraying myself afterwards with some woodsy smelling spray.
Loose clothing when possible and I try not to pick but am not that successful. I cry myself to sleep. I cry in the shower and often times I tell myself that one day I'll have enough nerve to take my own life. It's not a sign of weakness actually, it's a sign of strength because it's not easy to do.
I will give up at some point because its disgusting to look at let alone feel the burning pain from it all day and night.
I just wish I knew what it was from. And no I don't believe the hoopla I'm being told about the silica in the atmosphere although it could be right.
I just want my life back. That's all. It's ruining who I am, how I think, how I relate to others. No sleep except for if I take a pill. It sucks.
I have theories upon theories. Stress is one of them. Out of work, lost my dad, not speaking to my sister, my daughter
mad at me, etc.....
Or it could be allergies to my dog. She's a short haired Jack Russell but I have had her for 6 years and this itchy thing only 3.
I have read abut bird mites but I don't know. I am going to continue using what Dr. Karjoo gives me, and wait for the CDC Morgellons investigation.
We are going to have a meeting in Garden Grove soon so please make it to the meeting. The more people we get the better cuz the CDC will be there.
Thanks so much for sharing your story. My heart hurts to hear of all that you have been enduring and especially the hopelessness that you feel at times that make you feel like ending your life.
I recently cared for my dear mother through her terminal illness and I certainly understand what it's like to just want relief from the never ending pain.
I'm glad to hear that you have found this Dr. Karjoo who is working with you and that you are making some gradual progress. That's a blessing.
I was going to encourage you to look over our Morgellons treatment
suggestions for cleansing and building your immune system as well as looking into our most recent experiment with the ultrasonic pest repeller
I honestly don't know if the electronic repeller would help with possible Morgellons or not, but it's a pretty inexpensive thing to try. (I've ordered one myself).
I'd really love to hear more about this CDC Morgellons meeting that you are expecting to occur in Garden Grove, CA. Do keep us posted on the date and location for those in the area/region who might be able to attend.
I sincerely hope that you continue to improve and that your spirits will be lifted and encouraged.