Living in a nightmare I can't wake up from...
Living in a nightmare I can't wake up from...
In July of 2011, I made an appointment to see a new GP for my low thyroid condition. Two days before the appointment my arms and legs swelled up like balloons and were normal again on the appointment day.
When the young doctor arrived I started rambling about not only the brief edema, but sores on my head and arms that weren't healing, a tingling sensation between my shoulders, constantly tight neck muscles, and pain in my thumbs and knee joints.
He smiled politely and wrote scripts for various creams and pills and set me up for x-rays and some blood tests.
When the results came in I was in shock. He told me that not only was there arthritis in the thumb and knee, but in EVERY joint and bone in my body. Not only that, but Lymphdema and right side heart failure. This all seemed unbelievable considering a few weeks before I was hiking around the mountains with my dog and feeling just fine!
I accepted his prognosis and added all the new pills to my morning routine.
For as long as I can remember I've made a list for things I needed to do the following day. I've always stuck to that list and usually would get it all done. But by October, I was unable to even get any household chores done let alone the things on my list.
Depression took me over and anxiety to be out in public kept me frozen. My poor dog had to learn patience since she wasn't getting her sunrise walk until late afternoon, if at all.
Back to the doctor I went, returning with a script for anxiety. I look at all those bottles and remember how before 2011 I hadn't seen a doctor in 15 years.
It was nearly Xmas by now and I hadn't started on any of the gifts yet. I forced myself to get started on a pair of earrings and while looking through the magnifier discovered I had a nail fungus that extended around my cuticles and up my index fingers. (I'd thought it calluses)
After 5-6 weeks of twice daily applications it was only slightly better. I was starting to notice lots of little black "seeds" around the house and I had developed pimple like lumps on my upper back. They wouldn't go away so I decided to try a deep pore cleansing mask.
As I covered the last one that tingling sensation began and when it had dried and I was washing it off the nightmare began. I felt them open and all of these "things" started wiggling down my back. I screamed and started brushing at them with a back scrubber and watched as small flesh colored blobs washed down the drain. By the third pass with my brush I could feel the things migrating down INSIDE my back. I now knew what that tingling sensation was. Well, kinda.
I could barely get myself dressed after that, but decided I needed to go to the emergency. I was hoping there I would get answers and another pill that would kill off the rest. What I got were knowing nods and smirks.
It seemed that the whole of the ER must of made up some reason to come to admittance and check out the crazy lady. The female doctor was courteous and tried to be understanding of my distress, but when she asked what I thought it had been, or if I could show some to her my heart sank. I hadn't thought to save any.
When she left to get something I waited about 15 minutes then left also. A few days later the pharmacy called. She had sent a prescription over for Lidocaine patches
which the insert says are used for scabies. I could still feel them moving under the patches and nothing ever stuck to them.
Since then I've been seeing things on and in everything. I feel them in my brain, my heart, my lungs. I've imagined worms turning me into swiss cheese since I sometimes feel them squiggling in my nose and ears. Some were painfully trying to chew their way out of my little toe.
I can't remember my thought process at the time, but I figured they were carnivores and put a piece of the chicken I was trying to eat under the toe. Sure enough, out came what I thought would be little worms. Was I surprised to see itty bitty cocoons!?
I've been back to that doctor, and I had him give me pills for bacteria and fugus. I've had him do a complete lab work up for parasites - nothing.
Only in the past week have I realized that what I thought had been lint is really what has been the cause of it all.
I'd heard about Morgellons on Coast to Coast years ago, but never thought I would end up with it myself.
My dogs joints are swelling now and she's itching. I'm seeing small "cocoons" on her. Guess whatever effects them too. There's "fur" that crackles like it's full of static electricity and is as sticky as cobwebs. Now the vet thinks I'm a wacko also.
How am I going to explain this to the people I've told? Hope to put my own pictures up soon.
So sorry to hear of the living nightmare you feel you can't wake up from. My heart goes out to you sincerely.
Sadly, parasite and fungal issues are so often overlooked by conventional medicine professionals simply because it is not something they are trained in dealing with.
Typically, the testing for these conditions is completely unreliable as well. I know that sounds kind of hopeless, but if you are convinced by what you are seeing in your body and in your home, there are natural herbal treatments, etc, that you can use without a prescription that are likely to give you much better results.
I'm often accused of just trying to "push my products" to people who write in with their horrific parasite and fungal issues. At the risk of another accusation, I can't help but encourage you to seriously consider following the Morgellons treatment
protocol that we have suggested.
You don't have to order the supplements through our site if that makes you feel any better. ;) Yes, we earn a commission on sales for many of the products we suggest throughout the site, which enables us to maintain the website and spend time helping people with their health concerns, but anyone is free to search for the products elsewhere if they prefer.
My heart is simply to help people find the relief and healing that has eluded them through other avenues. I have personally used most of the supplements that I have suggested and feel confident in their quality and effectiveness.
Having said that, I would also encourage you to read over the candida diet guidelines
and make some changes in your diet to help your body get the fungus under control.
Also, I was interested on what you said about your low thyroid function. It may be completely unrelated, but I wonder when/if you last had your hormone levels tested?
Are you still on all the medications that the doctor originally prescribed for all those initial conditions he diagnosed?
I look forward to seeing your photos when you have a chance to add them, and I pray that you will be able to find healing soon. To your good health!